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Sunday, June 21, 2009

MY MAINEST GUY...

I turned on the television, its all about father's day, the news, shows, ad, what we need to get our old man for father's day. I miss my dad so much, i wish i could hug him and listen to his wise words and funny stories.


My dad called me mid 2007. He said himself and my little brother were going to be in yankee for the summer. I was so happy, i had not seen my dad in 5 months( he came for xmas).Even though we text each other every single day, i still wanted to see him. I was making plans in my head, i was going to take him and my brother to so many places. We spoke for about an hour, he advised me about life and the importance of education.


The next day i had an exam. i already knew i got it because i needed just 30 points to get an A, so even if i failed by final exam(like a 40%), i was still going to pass. Twenty minutes before my exams, i had a couple of phone calls, it is well bsnc everything is going to be alright. I was like yes i know, i don't even need to read for the exam.


My brothers called me after my exams, they said there were going to pick me up. Okay my brothers have not picked my up from school for ages. Now both of want to pick me up... Today must be my lucky day, people were wishing me well on my exams, now my brothers want to pick me up. I told one of them to not bother himself because the other one is coming over.


An hour later, i was in the car with my brother. My brother was talking about some random stuff all of a sudden, he is usual quiet compared to my other brothers. I felt a pain in chest, i couldn't breath, i knew something was wrong, but i couldn't place it. I noticed he was taking the route to my aunt's place.

bsnc: Is everything okay?

Bro: yes why would you think everything is not okay

bsnc: i dunno, you have been behaving strange and i just have that feeling you know..

Bro: well something bad happened.

bsnc: What, is anything wrong with pupsie or anybody in the family.

Bro: Somebody died, but its not our immediate family.

bsnc: phew.. I was kind of relieved, but i was still kind of scared.

bsnc: so who died

My brother didn't say anything for the next 15 minutes. i could hear my heart beating so fast again. Why would he not say something. We stopped at my aunt's place. my brother looked at me, took both my hands and told me the news.... bsnc pupsie died today. I remove my hands from his and stepped out from the car. no! no! no! its not true, its a joke right... am not finding it funny anymore.


I walked into my aunt's house and walked into my other brother's arm. He held me for almost 10 minutes, then he whispered in my ears, bsnc its true. I looked at him and i saw a tear drop slide down his face, i turned around and i saw my mum for the first time that day. The tears were falling down her eyes like rain drops. I went to her and tried my best to console her.


I didn't cry, it didn't make sense to me. For crying out loud i spoke to my dad yesterday, he said he was coming next month. My mum turned to look at me, bsnc did you not hear what everybody is saying, your dad is no more. Mummy i hear what you are saying, but i don't understand. i called my dad's phone, no answer. i called VSNC(she was in naija then), is it true. she could no say anything.

The next day i still could not cry. i mean why would i. My mum and brothers were worried about me. Everybody knows how close i was to my pups, they used to call me joseph, they said they will kidnap me one day and sell me to the mallams..lol


Two days later, i was reading an article and i wanted to share the story with my dad, then it hit me.... My dad is gone, he is really gone forever and i will see him no more. The tears just kept flowing, my mum was happy in a sad way, bsnc.. yes, let it out, let it flow, don't hold it back. she held me and i cried like a baby. At first i was angry with my dad, why didn't he fight back, he is the strongest man i know. It was hard, but i accepted it. I cried every single night for 3months, then it was every other day, then once in a week, then once in a while because i realise no matter how much i cry, he is never coming back. All i am left with is happy memories of him.


Sometimes i stop and think, he will not be there when i graduate, who will give me out on my wedding day, he will not be there to see his grandchildren and tell them the funny stories he told me when i was a kid. Daddy you are the most intelligent, funny, wise, handsome, kind, inspirational person i have ever met. I am proud to be your daughter. You are my Superstar...

R.kelly could not say it any better. i wish that i could hold you now, i wish i could touch now. i wish i could talk to you, be with you somehow. I know you are in a better place and i know i can't see your face, i know you are smiling down on me saying everything is okay.. its okay daddy, God has been wonderful to me

I LOVE YOU DADDY.

Happy father's day to all the wonderful daddys out there. If you get your papa, respect your papa, love your papa, embrace your papa because papa no get two. Daddys are the best o. Thanks for the comments from my last post, you guyz are too much. oya chop knuckles.

Have a lovely week

47 comments:

naija shawty said...

i just posted something similar.

i bet u still miss ur dad.

take heart

Ms. SpicyTee said...

Awww.. I'm so sorry about your dad.
Don't worry Dad's sleeping in the bosom of the lord and he will always knows how much you loved and miss him..

Happy father's day peeps..

How is your twins..Don't even what is what from you guys?

Have a great week ahead..

And yes..I'm the Firrrrrrrrrssssssssssst!!!..LOL

Emilia said...

Sorry hon about your dad and you know after reading stories like this I have learnt that i have to cherish family mo even though i have my dad i have not bn quite the best gal at respecting him.. Thanks and sorry too

Miss Natural said...

Im pretty sure your dad is smiling down at you and he misses you too. Yup, always cherish ur memories of him cos he'll always be alive in them. Happy father's day to him and all the wonderful dad's out there!

L-VII said...

I am thankful for you that you have the great memories. I hope today is not too hard for you.


L.

CaramelD said...

It's still very much a happy father's day for your Dad, because you and all your siblings are living his legacy everyday.

May his soul rest in peace, Amen.

BBB said...

am really sorry about ur dad.. cried while reading this..
today must have been really hard for u..
it is well

sweetness said...

may ur dad rest in peace amen
i guess we are on the same page
except that u have the strength to write about it and i do not
i dont even talk about it

always remember the good memories and the happier tyms

luv xx

Lady X said...

May his soul Rest in Peace.
It's at times like this I feel like Sorry is too little a word to say.
:(

akaBaGucci said...

WOW.. Sounds like the real kind of Dad most people can only wish they had! I'm sure he's smiling down on you all when he sees you've all made a lot of progress!

Nice Anon said...

Eyaaa. Good he was a good father to you. I know the memories will always remain in your heart.

leggy said...

ur dads prolly thinking...thats my daughter!!!!!!

Miss FlyHigh - LondonsNaijaQueen said...

Sweetheart all I can say is that you are a good product of your father and I'm sure he is proud of you.

i know all is well hun :-)

keep smiling

Tay-mee said...

Oh wow, you are such a strong lady. I am sure your Dad is very proud of you.

Happy Fathers day to all the Dads.

*Abeni* said...

aww BSNC so sorry about your dad. You are a complete sweet heart and he will always be so proud of you and your accomplishments. pele dear. Enjoy your week also.

Tinu said...

Bsnc soo sorry about ur daddie!i cried!ur soo strong and im sure ur dad is very proud of u!
have a fab week!

Sir Scribbles II said...

eyaaa! sorry my dear...Happy fathers day nonetheless...Sir Scribbles is lacking words here.....

Miss Lowlah said...

I'm sorry about your dad, but you're such a strong woman and it's obvious he's sppirit shows in you.

Happy father's day dear...

Merc said...
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Merc said...

Awww touching post...felt tears welling up in my eyes. Im sure he is watching you from heaven, beaming with pride.

Blowing Blessings Your Way XOXO said...

That was a lovely post...May his soul rest in peace...I'm sure he's smiling down on you.

bumight said...

I'm so sorry dear. my bestie lost her dad a whle back and i was totally clueless on how to comfort her.

He will be there when you graduate, and when u get married, and do lots more....you just wont see him.

Oyin said...

NOTHING GREATER THAN A DADDYS GIRL...

Sassy Trends said...

Oh my, it's well sweets... May your dad's soul keep resting in peace.

And may his gentle hands lead you across the all the ocean's of life.
It's a good thing to have two daddies watching over you in heaven...

xxxx

The Girl with the Red Hair said...

You have got great memories of him and it is good he spent his given you the very best...May his Soul rest in peace.

Thanks for the comment.

downtheaisle said...

pele, u must really miss ur dad. May his soul rest in peace.

Temite said...

Oh darling!

scribble,me.free said...

may his soul rest in peace, Happy Father's day to your Dad

Adaeze said...

Aww my dear I'm so sorry...
The day must bring back so many memories. I will be sure to thank god for blessing me enough that my father is still alive. May your father rest in perfect peace. I am sure he is looking down on you, proudly!

RocNaija said...

This was saddening and inspiring all wrapped into one.

You're a strong young woman.

Rita said...

Gosh! This is soooo touching...You got me at "he will not be there when i graduate, who will give me out on my wedding day, he will not be there to see his grandchildren and tell them the funny stories he told me when i was a kid..." and I think I know why there are tears in my eyes right now...

My Dad dared me to beat my elder sister's JSSCE results. He never lived to know the outcome. When I had to give a valedictory speech, I could not finish becos I was wishing he was there. On my wedding day, my younger brother, whom I carried, handed me out in marriage. I cried asking where is my dad whom I promised a tear-rubber when I get married. But my greatest joy is if he comes visiting today, he will be more than proud of who I have become and the fact that his name is alive.

Just want you to know that it is okay to cry when you think of him, and it is okay to go through the sweet memories you have of him. You do not need answers to all the questions in your heart.

Continue living as if he were alive and you want him to be proud of you, and never forget that God can truly heal us from hurt buried deep inside.

You are a strong woman to have shared this, the way you did.

SHE said...

It is a good thing that you have beautiful memories of your father.
A very good thing indeed.

Tigeress said...

Glad you had a father you cld call dad. Glad that he was good father. Glad he was there for you and a part of your life. You are truly blessed to have had a father like him.

Please check out my recent post on http://thecounselorandherthots.blogspot.com/

jhazmyn said...

In the things that remind you of him and in the things you do that are as a result of those genes he lovingly placed in you, that's his way of saying...BSNC, i'm always, ever with you

*Diane* said...

i'm so sorry for your loss! i just read this post @ work and tears started to form in my eyes (ppl are now looking @ me crazy because i was just laughing a few moments ago from your other post)
very touching post.

Repressed One said...

So sorry for your loss. He will continue to rest in peace. I hope you all were able to have a good day with the memories you all have of him.

You're strong to have shared this. Continue to make him proud for he continues to smile down on you all.

naijagirl said...

oh my gosh...BSNC, I am so sorry to hear this. I am terribly sorry for your loss. you talk so much about your dad. May his soul rest in peace, and I pray God gives your family the strength to bear the loss

Cidersweet said...

I am so sorry, BSNC. Thank God for the strength and comfort He has shed in your heart. You are strong, I admire that about you.
God bless you.

justdoyin said...

Sorry about ur dad bsnc...sooo sorry...

miss.fab said...

so sorry to hear this hon... may his soul rest in peace.

Miss.Subrosa said...

Lovely piece sis and really touching too.
Thanks for stopping by on my blog.
Cheers

PYS said...

Thanks for stopping by on my blog BSNC.

Dante said...

B..I am so sorry.

Good Naija Girl said...

Thank you for sharing your heart like this, BSNC. I am sorry that your dad is not here for you to go to and talk with but you will be reunited one day in the future. I pray that your family will always be able to think of him with fondness and happiness as you remember the good times. Sending you love.

P'sy-A-wana said...

my heart is wiv u, i know wat its like to lose a father...

Tairebabs said...

awww this post was really sad but such a lovely tribute.

1 + The One said...

This is lovely, I'm sure your dad is soo proud of his princess..
Thank God for the memories you have, nothing can take that away from you hun xx